Do I have to keep my youth?

I don’t like my lines on my face. My lines have been increasing and my cheeks have been sinking year after year. 

I don’t like to look at myself in a mirror. Myself in the mirror is not the same as my imagination. If I can’t see myself, I might not recognize my real age.

I don’t think my face with lines are beautiful at all. However, do I have to keep my youth? Do I have to hide my age? 

Youth is highly thought of others. Old people are not productive, worthless and burdens on others… such negative images frighten my aging.

I’d like to become a calm and mild person. I’d like to help someone else. “My experience of life changed me wonderful”, I’d like to think so at the end of life.